there are stars up there and such☆
this is basically a really personal blog about my life and my thoughts.
asian | film student | kpop fangirl | loner lolita
the url is an inside joke
main tumblr | wordpress
Permalink
Movies that I absolutely love and can watch over and over again
- Kamikaze Girls
- Memories of Matsuko
- Confessions
- Surely Someday
- Anastasia
- Harry Potter (most of them)
- 200 Pound Beauty
- My Darling is a foreigner
Permalink
there is no point in this post
For the past year I’ve been so uninspired and unmotivated when it came to making films and videos. I kept questioning myself like what’s the point? Why am I making films? What is the purpose? I felt like it was all just a waste of time and money. I mean, why do people watch films and movies? For entertainment mostly. And why I make films? In most of my films I tell a story. But I can’t find the purpose of telling stories anymore. Like, why would anyone be interested in my stories and my films? My videos are used as a way for me to express myself in a way I couldn’t do in real life, much like blogging. I make them mostly for myself, though, because no one cares how I’m feeling, ya know what I mean?
I just need to take a break from this whole filming scene. After graduation, I’m not touching a video camera for at least six months.
Permalink
there are stars up there and such☆: List of places I wanna visit/ revisit
I wanna travel the world, but these are the places I really wanna go. Sorta in order.
- Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka (and Hokkaido), because BOTH my bffs lives in Tokyo so it is my moral obligation to visit them and party with them and it will be more fun than the last time I was there. Kyoto and Osaka,…
Can I go with you?
haha yes, please.
Permalink
List of places I wanna visit/ revisit
I wanna travel the world, but these are the places I really wanna go. Sorta in order.
- Tokyo, Kyoto, Osaka (and Hokkaido), because BOTH my bffs lives in Tokyo so it is my moral obligation to visit them and party with them and it will be more fun than the last time I was there. Kyoto and Osaka, because I was supposed to go last time, but didn’t have time. Hokkaido because of reasons.
- Seoul and Busan, I’ve been to Seoul, but this time I wanna go without my parents
and stalk kpop artistsand Busan seems interesting - LA, coz I wanna see all my LA tumblr friends and also coz I haven’t been there in 10 years.
- Alaska, because I wanna see all the ice and glaciers and go dog sleighing!
- Harry Potter World, because I am a huge Harry Potter fan and maybe if I finally get to go I’ll finally grow up.
- Germany, to visit old friends and for reasons.
- Beijing, because I wanna see the Forbidden City and walk on the Great Wall. And coz my China visa expires soon.
- Taiwan, for bubble tea mostly.
- Egypt. I’ve been to Greece and Rome, so Egypt kinda completes a trio.
- Greece again. But this time to Crete and Mt Olympus.
- Denmark, Norway, Sweden, Finland, Iceland. Because it’s Northern Europe and I’ve always wanted to go there.
- Spain, because I was supposed to go December 2003, but I moved back to Malaysia in March 2003.
- Scotland.
- Mongolia.
- North Korea. I just wanna see what it’s like in there.
Permalink
You know how everyone always says “Follow Your Heart”
Yeah sure, look where that got me on life.
Permalink
Think, TY, think!
Ugh, so many projects to do and just when I find the inspiration, I can’t find the motivation…and then when I find the motivation, I don’t like my ideas. Ah why can’t I be good at something for onceeeeeee?
Permalink
Am I too delusional?
I normally never see him on campus. ever. The whole of last semester, I never saw him anywhere on campus even though we’re both art students and have classes in the same building (well, but different floors). This semester, I see him like every week. It’s prolly just coincidence the way our classes are timed, but Savannah says he’s prolly stalking me and I like that theory better, so I’ma keep telling myself that.
Also, my actress doesn’t like interacting with me. She’s rather interact with the two guys I work with. I understand they’re friends and I missed the NYC shoot because I was in Asialand, but I’m still a huge part of this project and I don’t see why she would hate me because I don’t think I did anything wrong. So my theory is that she’s intimidated by me xD It’s prolly not true, but I’m just gonna keep telling myself that.
Lying to myself to feel better is the way to go.
Permalink
new tumblog o(*^▽^*)o~♪
(random picture is random)
I decided to start a new tumblr, but make it a more personal blog so that I don’t clog up my main blog with thoughts that no one cares about. I also expect to be very lonely during this semester, so it’s nice to have a place where I can just rant or let out some thoughts so my brain doesn’t get too clogged up even though no one is reading. I’m expecting more emotional posts that are beyond just selcas, food, kpop and Lolita on here. I’ll be expressing a lot of feelings and reflecting on past/ present/ future events. Basically, it’s gonna be all. about. me. ☆:･ﾟ.*（*´＞∇＜）b*.ﾟ･:☆
WARNING: This blog will have a lot of very cheesy and corny, cliche, emotional, whiny posts. You have been warned.
Also, as an artist, I like to make a lot of personal work and I’m trying to work towards a central theme of memory and dreams (and incorporate Lolita into everything) for my films and videos. So, I want this blog to also bring out the art student in me lol let me find my inspiration and motivation that I have lost over the past 2 years while in art school.
I actually don’t really know what the purpose of this is. I feel like I’m just at a very emotional state right now. We’ll see how it goes.
PS: My url is an inside joke with my friends and it has a lot of meaning behind it…maybe I’ll explain next time~
